Sleepless but happy

Couldn't. Sleep.

Couldn’t. Sleep.

Something happened yesterday that had a direct effect on my sleeping habits…

Unexpected effect: Sleepless night.  Possible cause: Blogging.

Here’s why… You see, several hours after I posted my blog, my email started receiving notifications saying either someone has liked my post or someone started following me.  After the second or the third notification, I realized that people actually read what I wrote! Oh yey! — I no longer had to think that maybe I was just talking to myself or to the air (cyber air?!) the whole time… 

It felt good, really, knowing that someone’s interested enough… And so, I spent most part of the night peeking at either my email inbox or my WordPress notification to find out if there was another “like” or “follower.”  I was like a child on a Christmas morning.  Excited and expectant.

Then WordPress made me giddier by posting this: January 7 – Your best day for likes on “Supergoddess Me.”  Never mind if the number of likes isn’t even more than 20… Come to think of it, I’m not even sure if it’s more than 10… Yet, I’m still thankful.  So thankful I wanted to dance for joy the whole night.

My mind was so active, I started thinking of topics to write about, stories to share next.  It was already almost midnight and I was still so excited… and I was also so awake.

This is the effect blogging has on me… Though it’s also possible that the Mocha Ice Blended drink that I bought in the afternoon played a part…

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When it’s almost midnight and you couldn’t sleep, sometimes you turn to your television for support and companionship. You try to find either something worthwhile that will make you feel glad you stayed awake… or something utterly boring that will lull you to sleep.

Last night, I found Criminal Minds. Fortunately the episode wasn’t a rerun. Unfortunately, I couldn’t stop watching.

Criminal Minds

Hotchner. Morgan. *drool*

I remember mentioning in my blog years back how much I loved the show.  Between Hotchner and Morgan, gawd, what’s not to love?! I simply ADORE Shemar Moore (Derek Morgan).  Every time Criminal Minds is on air, I somehow get glued… regardless of how gory the episode may be.

So instead of falling asleep, I found myself at midnight wide awake, intently watching Criminal Minds, eventually getting creeped out… ended up praying that I won’t have bad dreams when I finally do fall asleep.

Not good.

But because of Derek Morgan, it wasn’t exactly that bad, either.

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Around six hours later…

It’s a brand new day.  I think I slept well, considering… and I woke up reenergized.  First thing I did when I woke up was to check my notification. Haha, talk about the need for affirmation.

Before I delve into my insecurities and start babbling, let me thank you for taking time yesterday — and today — to read what I had to say.  Thank you for “following” the site.  I hope I don’t disappoint. Maybe sometimes, I will — especially during the times when I am not exactly writing something deep or profound… (like now?!). But thank you just the same.

It feels good knowing that my words reach someone. Hopefully I get to entertain or inspire.  I hope you stick around. DO stick around.

Regardless of how old we get, there will always be that child in us waiting for that moment of thrill and pure joy.

Writing brings me pure joy.  I am happy when I get to put my thoughts into words. And I am happier when people appreciate those words.

It’s Christmas morning all over again.

SGM

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photo credits: wide-eyed smiley via iemoji ; Criminal Minds via google images

Milestone 100

Welcome to my 100th blog.

I have been so looking forward to this post.  It seems only yesterday when I started blogging — I mean, seriously blogging… and now you are reading my 100th entry.  Honestly, I never thought I’d reach this far.  As much as I love writing, I do run out of ideas and interesting topics that most of the time I wonder how I will be able to sustain keeping a blog. 

Now that I have reached my milestone 100, I promised myself I will make this entry an interesting one. 

If only I can think of anything exciting to blog about…

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I just realized that I haven’t written anything new since that Menudo article sometime last week (see Tuning In to the ’80s post).  To be honest, I let the entry “sit” for a while, allowing the readers to enjoy it first before I posted something new.   And then I just became so busy that I never got the chance to stay in front of the computer long enough to type something. 

I tried to check my stats, though, at least once a day… and much to my dismay, my hits just dwindled.  Yesterday was a new record-low.  As of 10pm, I had 0 views.  That totally hurt my psyche.  99 blog posts and I am back to 0 views.  I am back where I started. 

Once again I am reminded of the quote from the movie Field of Dreams : “If you build it, they will come.”  I haven’t written anything lately, ergo, I have no readers.  Makes so much sense.

So, this is my 100th entry.  Welcome me back to blog world!

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For lack of any new and interesting happening in my daily life, I tried to find inspiration from my favorite tv shows.  Let’s see where it goes from here… 

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Remember the tv show Charmed?  The one about three sister-witches who could kick butt — and who all happened to be good-looking.  I watched that show for 8 seasons.  To this day, I remember their 100th episode.

the ultra hot Cole Turner

In this episode, they killed off the character portrayed by Julian McMahon.

Julian McMahon played the role of Cole Turner aka the great demon Belthazor, who also happened to be the ex-husband/great love of Phoebe (Alyssa Milano’s character).   In this episode, Cole cast a spell to alter realities so that he can have Phoebe back (without the Charmed ones having to fulfill their destiny of kicking demon butts), but in the reality he transported himself to, he found out that though Phoebe was with him, she obviously didn’t love him. 

There was this particularly moving scene where Cole confronted Phoebe and when he asked why she can’t make things go back to how they were between them,  she replied, “Some things are just not meant to be…” 

How many times have we faced that realization in our own realities?

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Criminal Minds’ 100th episode.  The BAU were tracking down George Foyet aka the Reaper, a notorious psycho killer (convincingly played by C. Thomas Howell) who was playing mind games with Unit Chief Aaron Hotchner.  In this episode, the Reaper went after Hotch’s family– who were already under protective custody of the FBI, but since the Reaper was smart and cunning (and since it’s just a show), of course, he was able to track down Hotch’s family. 

Before the episode ended, Hotch’s wife Haley was killed by the Reaper.  But before he shot her, she was able to talk to Hotch on the phone.  It was a moving farewell spiel… where she made Hotch promise that whatever happens, he will make sure that their son Jack will know about love — and that Jack’s future will not be defined by death or darkness.

the painful goodbye

I felt what she said, really.  Maybe it’s because I’m a mother, too.  And as a mother, you would want to make sure that your child grows up knowing what love is… finding what’s good in this world, and not letting sadness or grief get the upper hand.  It was a riveting scene because while at the doorstep of death, Haley was still thinking of her son and the possible outcome of what was to happen.  It was the last selfless act of a mother.  I found myself in tears.

And C. Thomas Howell’s portrayal of George Foyet a.k.a. the Reaper was just spectacular.  In fact, he was pure evil.  Who would have thought that this was the same pretty boy who appeared in the movies Outsiders and Secret Admirer?

It was truly an intense 100th episode. 

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Grey’s Anatomy’s 100th episode was supposed to be Meredith-Derek wedding.  Instead, it was Alex and Izzie who ended up getting married.

Izzie-Alex wedding

What’s memorable about this episode were the voice overs in the beginning and closing of the show.  To quote Izzie’s closing voice over, “You never know the biggest day of your life is the biggest day. Not until it’s happening. You don’t recognize the biggest day of your life, until you’re right in the middle of it. The day you commit to someone or something. The day you get your heart broken. The day you meet your soul mate. The day you realize there’s not enough time, because you want to live forever. Those are the biggest days. The perfect days.”  (from tv.com)

Yes, we don’t always know what will or what can happen in any given day.  And most of the time, what may stand out are the things that we never expected nor planned.  It’s the little surprises that turn your day into something big.  You start off having a regular day and end up experiencing something that will stay with you  for a very long time.

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I started off with this blog not really knowing where it’s headed.  To some it may seem like a hodgepodge  of ideas. 

But I did learn some valuable things in the process…

For one, I relearned that writing is not easy.  There are off days… there are days when hard as you try, you just seem so stuck and you just want to begin your piece with “In the beginning…” or “Once upon a time,” just so you will have an opening line.  Second, I learned that when something really affected you somewhat, you are bound to remember it more easily than the other mundane things in life.  Like the episodes I mentioned above, for example.  I remember those episodes because of the scenes and the lines that moved me.  Third, you reach different people in different ways.  Not everyone appreciates a certain quote exactly the same way.  People pick up or discover things from where they are in life, depending on what they need to learn most on a given day or at a given time.  Some ideas are more valuable than others.

Lastly, this painstakingly long exercise of writing this 100th blog somewhat reminded me of the reasons why I blog on the first place… It’s because I want to share what I know.  It’s also because I want to remember stuff.  And all the more so, it’s because I know that as you read my entries, you get to know me better… and as I write them, I get to know more about myself.

Here’s to the next 100… Ha- Ooh!  (the Spartan way!) 

Ha..Ooh!

 

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photos via google image; Grey’s Anatomy quote via tv.com

(tv show episode summaries from own memory)

 

 

 

as good as it gets

How this Friday went…

A.M.

  • Got son’s report card.  Scared off   Talked to son’s teachers.
  • Commended son for having such high grades (and I mean REALLY, NERDY high!)
  • Beamed like a proud mama.  (Proud to be a proud mama.  If that makes sense)
  • Brought son to classmate’s house for some activity.
  • Met with sister. Sister decided to ditch SGM when her boys (translation: husband and son) became jaundiced (translation: bored and edgy)
  • Went home to lounge in front of the tv   

    love 'em!!!

  • Watched rerun of Criminal Minds (same episode shown last night) 
  • Watched Australia’s Next Top Model cycle 702 (?)
  • Tried to mimic how Australian models walked… and talked.

P.M.

  • Forgot to eat lunch, was so busy imitating the Australians.
  • Visited the dentist.
  • Listened to crappy love songs while waiting at the dental clinic. Not by choice. Dentist’s secretary listens to only one station.  Patients have no choice but to bear the music (new form of anesthesia?)
  • Picked up son from classmate’s house to bring him to yet another activity.
  • Found out son and friends are swimming — fully clothed.  “Mom, they threw me into the pool!”  Yeah right.
  • Supermom found extra (dry) clothes for son in the car. Nice one, Supermom… that’s why you’re super!
  • Brought son to next activity
  • Went malling while son was busy.  

    love it!!!

  • Bought a bottle of cologne.  Proud mama deserved a gift!
  • Thought of buying superson a prize for having nerdy high grades.  Didn’t find anything he liked, though. Tough luck!
  • Went home
  • Basically stayed in front of the tv — since son was hogging the computer the whole night.
  • Watched America’s Next Top Model cycle 999 (they never end, really!)

… and then…

  • Watched another episode of Criminal Minds  (did I say I love Derek Morgan?)

Perfect ending for a relaxed day.  Really looking forward to a relaxing  baseball-free weekend, too!

xoxo

 

Signing off for the week,

SGM

 

 

 

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photo via google images; weheartit.com

On this rainy friday…

What has happened so far…

  • I took out an old pair of black skinny jeans and was thrilled to find out that they still fit.
  • I look sexy in said jeans
  • They are playing ’80s music over the radio
  • I just heard Melt with You by Modern English
  • I was able to watch another Criminal Minds episode (without He-Man hovering over me, asking me why I enjoy watching such disturbing shows)
  • Note to world: I love Criminal Minds.  He-Man can’t do anything about that.
  • Note to self: STOP obsessing about Derek Morgan
  • Checked email.  Got a writing project (Yay!)
  • Replied to project coordinator. Tried to sound formal and professional.
  • Failed at sounding professional.  Excitement gave me away.
  • Opened ym to chat with besties.
  • Found one friend and one cousin to chat with.
  • Cousin’s internet connection conked out. Was left with friend.
  • Friend decided too busy to chat, logged off before I can say supercalifragilistic….
  • Listened to A-Ha’s Take on Me for the second time.
  • Checked my email again for first assigned writing work.  No new email yet.
  • Note to self again: Don’t harass project coordinator!!
  • Checked out FB page for interesting news/status/ posts. Found nothing worthwhile.
  • Checked the weather forecast for the weekend. It says more rain.
  • Listened to the song Footloose. 
  • Attempted to do a Kevin Bacon.
  • Stopped self from doing a Kevin Bacon.  Wedge shoes made it difficult.
  • Decided to blog.
  • Tried to write something inspirational or profound.
  • Decided not inspired enough to write something inspiring.
  • Ended up with this entry.
  • Went back to obsessing about Derek Morgan. Sigh! (It’s the weather!!!)
  • Realized I have to turn mommy mode on and hit the groceries… otherwise family will go hungry the whole weekend.

Having said all that… Now wishing everyone a fun weekend ahead.

Keep safe. And warm!!!

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* lovin’ the rain *

 

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photo: weheartit.com

Invincible… not!

Sometimes you really have to listen to what your body is saying, and give yourself a break…

Over the weekend, i was down with really bad colds, cough and on-off fever.  I tried to fight it — even watched my son’s baseball game Saturday morning– but, well, when you’re weak, you’re weak.   I left the baseball game early and decided to rest — in front of the tv.  I must be really sick because there was a Criminal Minds marathon showing and i kept dozing off in the middle of an episode.  And to think that it’s one of my favorite shows!

I ended up sleeping practically the whole afternoon.  My body has long been craving for undisturbed sleep and I had to give it just that.

I am feeling much better now.  Still having some sniffles, and coughing fits every now and then, but i am up and about.  Sometimes we just have to let nature — or in this case, the virus — run its course. 

When you can’t fight anymore, stop for a while.  Recharge.  No use trudging and not getting anywhere.  Sometimes, rest is good. 

Now i feel like a new person.  

 Wonder Woman by ~cggp on deviantART

It’s good to be back.

 

 

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photo credit: weheartit.com