Sleepless but happy

Couldn't. Sleep.

Couldn’t. Sleep.

Something happened yesterday that had a direct effect on my sleeping habits…

Unexpected effect: Sleepless night.  Possible cause: Blogging.

Here’s why… You see, several hours after I posted my blog, my email started receiving notifications saying either someone has liked my post or someone started following me.  After the second or the third notification, I realized that people actually read what I wrote! Oh yey! — I no longer had to think that maybe I was just talking to myself or to the air (cyber air?!) the whole time… 

It felt good, really, knowing that someone’s interested enough… And so, I spent most part of the night peeking at either my email inbox or my WordPress notification to find out if there was another “like” or “follower.”  I was like a child on a Christmas morning.  Excited and expectant.

Then WordPress made me giddier by posting this: January 7 – Your best day for likes on “Supergoddess Me.”  Never mind if the number of likes isn’t even more than 20… Come to think of it, I’m not even sure if it’s more than 10… Yet, I’m still thankful.  So thankful I wanted to dance for joy the whole night.

My mind was so active, I started thinking of topics to write about, stories to share next.  It was already almost midnight and I was still so excited… and I was also so awake.

This is the effect blogging has on me… Though it’s also possible that the Mocha Ice Blended drink that I bought in the afternoon played a part…

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When it’s almost midnight and you couldn’t sleep, sometimes you turn to your television for support and companionship. You try to find either something worthwhile that will make you feel glad you stayed awake… or something utterly boring that will lull you to sleep.

Last night, I found Criminal Minds. Fortunately the episode wasn’t a rerun. Unfortunately, I couldn’t stop watching.

Criminal Minds

Hotchner. Morgan. *drool*

I remember mentioning in my blog years back how much I loved the show.  Between Hotchner and Morgan, gawd, what’s not to love?! I simply ADORE Shemar Moore (Derek Morgan).  Every time Criminal Minds is on air, I somehow get glued… regardless of how gory the episode may be.

So instead of falling asleep, I found myself at midnight wide awake, intently watching Criminal Minds, eventually getting creeped out… ended up praying that I won’t have bad dreams when I finally do fall asleep.

Not good.

But because of Derek Morgan, it wasn’t exactly that bad, either.

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Around six hours later…

It’s a brand new day.  I think I slept well, considering… and I woke up reenergized.  First thing I did when I woke up was to check my notification. Haha, talk about the need for affirmation.

Before I delve into my insecurities and start babbling, let me thank you for taking time yesterday — and today — to read what I had to say.  Thank you for “following” the site.  I hope I don’t disappoint. Maybe sometimes, I will — especially during the times when I am not exactly writing something deep or profound… (like now?!). But thank you just the same.

It feels good knowing that my words reach someone. Hopefully I get to entertain or inspire.  I hope you stick around. DO stick around.

Regardless of how old we get, there will always be that child in us waiting for that moment of thrill and pure joy.

Writing brings me pure joy.  I am happy when I get to put my thoughts into words. And I am happier when people appreciate those words.

It’s Christmas morning all over again.

SGM

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photo credits: wide-eyed smiley via iemoji ; Criminal Minds via google images

Time out

It has been a very tiring couple of weeks. 

Been busy reviewing my son for his exams… then there are the other things i had to attend to for my sister who’s currently out of the country… and then there are things i need to attend to for my mom who’s out of town… then there are issues i had to help resolve — or at least i had to spend time hearing and listening about… and then there’s Mr Big who barks at 2am, and again at 5am… and although i am not always the one who stands up and attends to Mr Big in the wee hours of the morning,  i still can’t get the peaceful sleep because, well, i hear his bark.

Been sleeping late, too.  For some reason i find myself still washing dishes at 10 in the evening (which means we had late dinner)… sometimes i feel like i have to crawl to get to bed.  I find solace in the hot shower that i take before going to sleep around midnight… though i have to stay alert because there truly are nights when i’m afraid i’d fall asleep while taking a shower.  I am just so exhausted. 

My energy level is at an all-time low.  This morning i had to drink multivitamins to pep me up.  So far it hasn’t helped.  And yes, no amount of caffeine in my system seems to help, too. 

I guess we all really need some time out.  Time to do things for ourselves… time to do nothing… time not to be spent  thinking about problems or day to day issues… time to watch — i mean, REALLY watch — tv without distractions or without having to fall asleep in the middle of the show… time to read and finish a book — during the day, not at 3 in the morning… 

I know i cannot just pack my bags and leave everything behind, go somewhere where i won’t hear calls for “mommy” or the barking of the dog… even for a day — or two.  I’m too responsible for that.  I won’t say, though, that the thought never crossed my mind. 

 Supergoddess is super tired…. now that’s something you don’t see nor hear everyday!  I’d better snap out of it soon.